But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. (2 Corinthians 12:9)
Some of my favorite song lyrics comes from the song, “You Are” by Colton Dixon. It reads as follows:
“If I had no voice/if I had no tongue/I would dance for You like the rising sun/and when that day comes and I see Your face/I will shout your endless, glorious praise”
These lyrics are especially tender to me, as quite a bit of my life in the past had been built around singing and using my voice to entertain, to compete, to find my identity and to express myself. Now, the primary use of my voice (I hope!) is to praise my God through song, prayer, and sharing the gospel and encouragement to those who need it.
Today, though, I find myself unable to sing with full strength and clarity because I have caught a little of the cold virus that is running rampant this time of year! I actually tried a few minutes ago, and it was pretty hilarious to hear me try to make beautiful a few notes of “Revelation Song” which I was asked to lead this Sunday at church.
I could be a little worried to get up in front of church and sing my heart out to Jesus with a less-than-perfect singing voice; after all, what if people are distracted by my bad notes and unpleasant cracking? What if they think I should have passed on singing this week because it makes them uncomfortable watching me struggle through something that is normally a breeze? Do people only want me at my best, but wish I would keep the weak parts of me hidden?
I’m not a bit ashamed, however, of my voice in this state. It’s good for people to see us in our weakness because then God can more clearly manifest His power in these situations. You see, when I sound amazing and my voice is strong, others and myself can attribute that to my own talents and giftings. But if I were to get up and sing with my spirit overshadowing my natural voice, people could say, “Well, your natural voice wasn’t that great today, but what I saw was your love of God, and willingness to praise Him despite looking foolish.”
I praise God that I’m at a point in my life where I am willing to look foolish to and weak so that God may be glorified and put on display. I am ready to boast in my weaknesses so that God can be my strength. And even if my voice fails me, you better believe I will be in front of our congregation pouring my heart and my life out to my Father, with or without my pretty voice.